takin' a break..

almost 2a.m. now.. have written two pages.. one more to go.. taken me two hours to write.. two pathetic pages.. sigh... (edit: i'm doooone.. it's 2:30... sleep time plz thx)

so congratulations to kmrd.. penance.mobile pulled through.. hopefully she'll survive the summer..

..sigh.. i've totally been out of it today.. been having weird out of body experiences.. kinda like i'm watching myself from another world, or time.. maybe i've been reading too much manga.. it's like i expect my life to just pan itself in front of me.. but it's too slow.. i wish life were more exciting.. i feel so ordinary.. i.. guess that's because i am.. sigh.. grass is greener syndrome.. times like this, i wish i was back in cold and lonely london.. i miss the freedom.. walking down the streets at 3 in the morning with nothing but a jacket and a cigarette.. the skies are so clear in london.. i would get lost in the stars.. i want to get out of this hole.. to get away from the claustrophobic cell.. i envy those of you who have a place to call your own..